Hard To Start Over Again....

So, today was my first Dr's appointment since my D&C. Just a check up to see what was going on, how we were. I was very surprised and happy that my Dr asked us how we were doing emotionally. I know some women have to be on Anti-Depressants after miscarriages, and I feel very fortunate that I haven't spiraled into a depression. I have to say I know that its because of 2 things. One is my husband, he has been such a support, so sweet and caring, and optimistic. The other is my Heavenly Father. I am so grateful for the knowledge I have of His great plan, and that He is watching over me. I would feel so lost without this knowledge.

The Dr's appointment wasn't very easy. Being there just brought back all the feelings of what happened. Not to mention everywhere I turn there is a big belly bump....that's the hardest part I think of going to the Dr's.

So we are back on the treatment road. Just waiting for a fresh cycle to start and then begins the drugs, shots, and ultrasounds...how I have learned to hate that ultrasound machine...it has become the bane of my existence I think. Well, that and my stupid weight issues...but that's another post. Its funny because the nurses don't even give me instructions anymore in the ultrasound room. They know I just know.

I just pray that we are blessed with another baby soon. My Dr is optimistic, and so am I. It will happen when its supposed to, this I know for sure. The waiting is hard. The trying is hard. But it will all be worth it in the end.

I also wanted to share my new necklace. I got it from the r house, you can find her blog here: http://therhouse.blogspot.com/ she has a store on Etsy, you can find it on the right hand column of her blog. I just decided what I wanted and asked for it. I love it...it already has a very special meaning for me. There is something about the little jade bird that touches me...I can't quite put my finger on it. Maybe I feel like my baby grew wings, or maybe I feel like I'm growing wings after all the experiences I have been through. I'm not sure. Anyhow! I highly recommend her stuff.

Well, its just a waiting game (again!). I'm sure I will be blogging more now, so I hope you will all check back often. :)