We were sitting in Sunday School near a little baby probably around 4 months old or so. And the whole meeting I was just holding back tears. I was about to turn to DH and scream..."WE ARE TRYING AGAIN!" My arms just ache badly to hold my baby...I want so desperately to be a Mom...someday's its the all consuming thought, all day long. I don't want to be on break. I hate being on break. Why do I have to be on break????
I'm trying to keep myself out of the depression spiral, I have felt it lift a little over the past couple of weeks. So I don't want to do this to myself. Its hard.
I am just ready to be a Mom....
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