Friday, January 1, 2010

Ringing in the New Year

How did I do it? A nice long cry on my hubby's shoulders. Yep. Lovely way to start the New Year huh? I am just feeling so very overwhelmed right now. With my Dr's appointment coming up, several other things looming on the horizon, I just feel over loaded majorly. It also doesn't help that during the holiday's I get to pretend to be funny, happy, brave Tami. She gets to pretend that her life is great, that things that have happened in the last 2 years haven't taken a toll on me or my marriage. Sadly when the eyes are yet again turned away from us, things like the long cry happen frequently.
Don't get me wrong. There are times I'm fine and happy. But like I said in an earlier post, this cloud seems to just loom. It never seems to let up. Its always in the back of mind. Its just hard. The hardest thing I have been through in fact...
Anyways, my brain is scattering, and I am losing focus on this post, so I will go back to trying to enjoy my evening with my hubby. Hope all had a wonderful New Year. :)

1 comment:

  1. Hopefully this doesn't seem weird, but I found your blog through a cousin of mine that has your link. Just wanted to tell you I'm in the same boat, no kids and not sure when it's gonna happen, nor am I sure what's wrong. I have a vague idea...but anyway. Sometimes it's just nice to know you're not alone, so I thought I'd say hi. :)