Getting pregnant is torture. It feels like its always waiting. And I am so tired and sick of it all! You wait for your period to end, you take your meds. Then you wait for your ultrasound, then you wait to ovulate, then you wait to find out if it worked. I mean its just really torture. Nearing 7 years of it especially is making it seem REALLY old.
Sometimes I really do feel like just giving up. Moving on and saying you know what? We are done trying. If it happens great. If not, then lets have an interesting life anyways. It almost feels like you are holding your breath, and if you let it out, it will be the end of the world.
As some point I will give up. But I am not sure where that point is. Sometimes I think its close, sometimes I think its far away. I feel just like I am treading water just trying to keep my head above water and giving up means the end of the world too.
*Sigh* Just ready for things to get better, move forward...something to happen! Sheesh!
Kind of just found your blog through a blog through a blog....;) Blog stalking? Blog surfing? Anyway-sweet sister, I think you write beautifully AND eloquently. My heart goes out to you. I'm impressed and inspired in all that you've done and are doing in your journey to motherhood. I know how daunting it is. You 'll be in my prayers. I wish there was more... Much love.
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